Jannie

Sorry but this might not be so great....
One year ago...
She left one year ago today. I didn't tell her good-bye, it might not be something I'll every say.
But she still went, she is gone anyway.
She was young, she was beautiful and she was loved. She's gone and will always be missed.
I have this picture in my head of her final days, she hurt I'm sure, and I think she knew it wasn't good. But I see her laying there, all in white...(I think her hair fell out but that is not how I see her) her brown hair with that distinguished slash of gray, looking worn out...tired... as she did when staying up late talking, attempting to solve the worlds problems in front of a fire on her living room couch.
I see her crooked smile, I know she smiled, it came so easy. Even when she carried so much pain, I know that smile was there. Making assurances, cracking jokes...everything would be alright she'd say.
It wasn't...She didn't know she wouldn't see this Christmas or last, she didn't know she'd seen her last pile of snow, she didn't know she was going to go. But she went.
It sucks for the living. But her, she lived.
She fulfilled so many dreams.
Her husband, her daughter, her home, her horse and her family.
I don't think she could or would've asked for anything more.
Except to live that perfect life she lived....
I love you Aunt Jannie